ugh

chem-E
lit beloved paper-D
lit grt gatsby-hopefully C or D
physics-cfm U
maths-i hope D or E or C
gp-pls ket me gt a C

haix.when u haf no sense of attachment to smth,it's rly damn sian.im trying hard to like bear wif it and enjoy.i played better than usual today,bt still sucked.grr.i miss rv sjab,a lot.bt nwadays i cant go back leh.like no time ]: i rly wish i can go back fer trng and gt away from all the shit arnd me.dn i dun haf to face ppl who say im useless and might as well dun join otc.like wtf.thanks fer making me feel better seriously.

dn nwadays i feel so fucked up.yes.dere's no other way to best describe.i think dey shld change "im a big big girl in a big big world" to "im a f-ed up girl in a f-ed world".haha so apt.haix.super sian of life.dn dis stupid headache wun go away.it comes everytime im nt feeling happy.wad e shit.i dun nd dis.

wakeboarding was damn fun.bt i haf to admit i dun haf talent.took damn long to be able to wakeboard fer a dist.weichang is a pro seriously.his stunts are way cool.lol.sunburnt now.nose damn pain.im gng to learn wakeboarding next time.hopefully wif my frens--wini huiyi dey all.u all shld try rly.super shuang.

ugh.doing eom now.trying to do.i hate studying lar.i wish i can live a relaxed life.

smtms i expect a miracle dn when it doesnt hpn,i gt rly upset.i noe it's my fault to gt my hopes high,bt i cant help it.i start to gt ideas in my head tt wun go away,dn obviously dey will nvr hpn de.

im 17 le leh.i dun feel diff.im still pretty,bt nt glamorous.im nt smart.i still dun haf the thing i crave fer the most.i still dun haf wonderful singing.i still dun attract bengs.im still clumsy and accident-prone.i still gt upset over the smallest things.haix.sucks.