emotionally disabled

ah yes.im looking at things from a narrow light.im an emo ass.and i LOVE being emo.definitely. -.- i snd bitchy even when being emo.fuck.esp when obviously wad he said is true:wads my prob compared to the ppl suffering out in the wide world?NTH.so wad am i even emoing abt!grr.i feel so pissed wif myself.

had a screwed trng again.the last drill i did b4 gng fer agi meeting was better though.after i calmed down and rested a while.daryl was the one who told me to rest.i was qte surprised.he doesnt seem to haf a v gd impression of me.

agi meeting.i settled a few matters le.now is the proposal part.ah.jiayou.shit man.i cant go fer nat comp briefing cos gt speech day.i shldnt haf sent in the letter.damn.now wad?i'll probably be OOC or smth and be a blur OCT fer the last time on nat comp dayi hope i dun OOC though.waste of time and effort and smhw,i RLY want to do this agi thing rite.even though mine is a small and qte hilarious section of the event.

i cant send day off tmr.i wish i can go.i rly want to go.but i cant.shit.holland v.haix.

haha.today gt swimming fer pe.damn shuang.i felt so so so happy and carefree.floated on my back and looked at the sky.dn omg.i didnt want to gt out of the pool.i feel confident in water.bt nt on land.lol.

if a fight ever breaks out,i will be dere to watch.

i met a v nice taxi uncle who talked to me all the way back home!he told me his child gt 7 fer o's dn he asked him to go jj cos near.and he scored 3 b's 1 a.dn i was telling him abt hc and hw stressed i am.and i felt so much better.he was so nice.and $10 was enough aft all.thks fer the 20 though.return u next time.sorry lar fer the trouble.and dun worry.he wun go fight u or wad de.i'll explain to him.tt dere's nth on gng btwn us.