Death

im thinking abt dis.actually,death isnt rly a destination or an end of life.okay mbe it is,i dno.bt like,death is a process lar.ppl dun just DIE one day,dey die gradually.on some days,because of things that hpn,parts of us die.slowly and gradually,we disintegrate,until one day dere's nth left to die anymore,and we disappear completely.and tts when we "die".

i realised this because..well..i think tt it makes sense.ppl live fer reasons.ppl disintegrate because deir reasons fail dem,and because their hearts gradually brk.

tt sucks actually.means parts of me are dying.like now i guess.esp last yr.hmm.i dun mind it tho.cos at least i haf things to feel fer,it means.does it make sense?like..u can only die fer smth u feel fer.when smth hurts,the pain gts to u.okay i dun think im understood.nvm.

i smtms wish it was a quicker process tho.

and im still qte shocked at smth i heard dis morning.bt getting ovr it,and understanding it now.fucked up things hpn,and dis is just one of dem.as long as ___'s okay abt it.im fine too.

mm frens ar.things are nt wad dey seem lar.i NOE.bt it just wun work out tt way.cos..we're worlds apart.lol.

dis is so fucking depressing.i gng to gt detention on the first day of sch.i NOE it.and my complexion sucks due to slpless nites.sianded.no more pretty jiahui.

yay i cant wait fer more volunteer work!! :D