slow dancing

yea.i rly wish we cld do tt.but we cant.cos all the money in the world dun belong to us.and that life doesnt belong to me too.i guess im stuck.lol.
i rly wan to bleieve that i can live forever,childish as it may seem.
been thinking a lot these few days.and i truly gt the full impact of dis:that 2's company,but 3 or more is a crowd.except fer certain ppl whom i dun mind hanging out in 3s cos i feel at ease.but some ppl just dun make me feel the same.i feel weird and out of their world.and i rly hate the feeling.of cos,it all boils down to 1 ultimate reason and im rly resentful abt tt.it's unhealthy,all this rage and upsetness and bitterness.it's messed up.fucked up.but i cant help it.i tried to self reflect,but i cant accept the fact that some things are way beyond my control.

"The Way I Do" by Marcos Fernandez
Your kiss, your smile, your mind
You're sunlight in my eyes
I miss your breath on my neck
When we whisper in the night
Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

Your touch, your skin, can't believe the way you let me in
Don't rush tonight, I need you like the ocean needs the tide.

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

I always thought I would stand on my own
Climb a mountain top all alone
Relying, depending on no one
Now look at what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.
Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
The way I do
Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
The way I do
I love you
I need you
I want you..the way I do


a nice song.emo.but nice.and i wish i cld rely on no one and be really anti social.smtms.grrr.i wish i wld nvr die.even if i do,pain-proof please.JUMPING DOWN?UH-UH.NO WAY.call me a coward.but im nt dying tt way.lol.